For the past few months, i been asking myself this..
What the hell have i been doing....
literally i been dragging myself out of bed every morning, and drag myself to work ...
Especially since i wasnt feeling too well since last month.
I feel so ... hmmm so ..... I really dont know.
I just seems to realise all of a sudden.
I have lost my direction in Life.
I have lost the focus which im suppose to have.
I have lost all motivation and desire.
I just wake up being blur every morning, and go to bed even blurr
I no longer knows what im doing... just passing each day by each day
I hate myself in this state.. which i seriously cannot comprehend what went wrong?!
I even start to question myself.. why am i doing the same thing day in day out..
So tired... I just want to rest.
Not a short holiday.... it just I wan to really NUAR at home doing nothing for a
while.
Maybe I feel get better from my IBS, which is triggered by stress
maybe i would feel more refreshed and focus, like what Ying suggest.
Maybe i should just not work and stay at home... but what am i doing to do at home?
Or am I getting OLD... TOO OLD
that i start to forget things... at an alarming speed
Like what Wick has suggested, get a voice recorder...
but seriously.. i think i would have forgotten to make a voice recording
or lost the recorder.
Luckily my boss is kind enough, ask me to take a long leave to rest and take care
of my health.
But boss.. (Im know you are reading this)
5 days of offdays including weekend is consider LONG LEAVE meh??
I thought LONG LEAVE is minimum 2 weeks off??
hmm ..................maybe i should have get dengue fever or chicken pox
MC for 2 weeks!
I seriously need some motivation and directions in LIFE
Sometimes i just wished i can disappear for a while...
Am I the only 1 that is feeling this??? Or everyone is the same.. ? which i doubt so.
Ignore me if you dont know what im ranting about...
i seriously dont know what im ranting off...
there is just too much question marks in my brain.
Arghh..............
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I think you are going thru a quarter life crisis. Yeah. There is such a thing. Goggle it. And then see if i am right.
Frankly I was like tat just last month. Only mine was not quarter life. Past tat stage already.
Plus i was sick and coughing. And very tired. And also found myself close 2 tears 4 no reason.
And then just as it appeared, it disappeared. And i also dun know wat happened. Maybe our brains are lacking some chemical imbalance?
Quarter Life?? As it pass 30 years old?
I hope it not early menopause.
Its just like mood swings of depression..
Now everything also Sianz Sianz Sianz
Quarter life as in people between 25 to 30. Similar 2 mid life crisis and yet different.
Menopause would be another 15 to 20 years from now.
but yours only happen for 1 month right? i mine started for months liao...
Mine for years. Months at time even. Latest last month.
Frankly if you think 2 weeks leave will get you back on track, take your leave.
2 weeks... hahaha I also hope so.
just cannot lor..
Then 1 week la. Anyway, its not a good idea 2 quit cos you will get more depressed sitting at home with nothing 2 do. Work does distract the mind.
hmm,actually feel like doing it.. then look for smething later on....... but nt a very gd time nw.
the 1 week leave is another 3wks away..
Now recession, every body gets depressed. Plus the heatwave scorching weather. And now got the swine flu. The future is not looking very bright 4 everyone.
Later on cannot find a suitable job, you will get even more depressed. Sometimes the darkness is a spiral. It just suck you in deeper and deeper. Only you can help yourself.
yah this i agree...
boh lwee... i lagi depressed.
haiz alot of things cannot say here.
next tell tell u at mcl there
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